It sucks when you get into a situation where suddenly you feel uncomfortable with the people around you. Dealing with others should come with a lot of care and precautions. I hate this feeling. Not knowing who to trust…and not knowing who’s got your back.

We’re not kids anymore. Life is happening right now

Joined the after-party for Katy Perry’s with ate Klang, ate Milky, Dex (and his other friends) at Republiq. Well it was just supposed to be a dinner-out with ate Klang’s friends at Cafe Juanita. But since ate Milky wanted to go clubbing, we granted her request! No doubt that it was a fuuuuuun night. Plus my sister’s ultimate blooper for 2012! ) I wouldn’t mention it here coz she’ll curse me forever! But comparing it to Usher’s after-party a year ago, Usher’s was still the best! Oh well, they only played one Katy Perry song and I was in the mood for my teenage-dream-dance-moves that night! ) So there we partied with Ruffa G, Bubbles P, Phoem B, Tessa P, Geneva, and to top it all…the Azkals team. I guess this party was just right.

No boys (just because I had a nosebleed with Ivan, haha! and ofcourse except for James Younghusband!), just a few drinks, and those to-die-for songs!

Sharing this video I took of Katy’s dancers (sorry for the audio’s poor quality):

Honestly, I felt sad today…or maybe the more appropriate term is frustrated. I already saw this coming during the past few days. I thought I was prepared for it, but then again, I wasn’t after all. I don’t want to specify things, or even blame you. But I know what I felt, and I know what you’ve shown in return. They were not merely mixed signals. I’m quite sure something was already there. I’m talking not just as a hurt person, but someone who has fallen, but was left hanging. The minute I stepped out of that door, it’s like I was missing you over and over again. I don’t want to be mad, but I don’t want to be weak either. Now I realized how much I feared for this day to come. With just one sitting, it all ended in a snap. The special bond, the friendship, and most especially, the Chuck and Blair resemblance. I wouldn’t deny that I was hopeful…that you would be an improvement over the last, and that finally, I’ve found a lover and a bestfriend in one. I was happy with how things were going. With you I experienced more movies, more music, more food, and more laughter. I feel sorry for myself because I did prepare myself for a fall…and now I face the consequences. I made this same mistake with you once. And the second time I did this same mistake with you, it wasn’t a mistake anymore, but a choice. The fact that things won’t be the same anymore hits me. A lot. But I’m not a kid anymore. No one could save me from myself. So this is where my mind takes over. Now I’ll stop chasing over the wrong things, to give the right things a chance to catch me.

Maybe some people are meant to fall for each other, but are not meant to be together.

You will always be that person….my bad ass Prince Charming ala Chuck Bass

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Senti time before going to sleep.

Loving this song of Juris right now.

I think I’m starting to….. hmmmmm…

omg.

We still have remaining hours of 2011 and I want to seize it. But soon as the clock strikes 12, I wanna avoid old habits that I wanted to get rid of, learn from those unwanted memories, and most especially say goodbye to the millions of heartbreaks that I wanted to forget. Cheers to 2012 and let’s all hope for the best!

I know I remember everything I said last night, and I meant every bit of it

Just some thoughts. Before the year ends, I wanna have a day where I can sight a beautiful sunrise, witness a wonderful sunset, and down to experiencing a lovely stargaze.

It’s kinda ambitious I know…but if it won’t happen, there’s still next year anyway :p

Natasha Bedingfield songs often gives me that “feel-good” vibes whenever I listen to them. Since I needed a little something to cheer me up, this song still never fails.

I just got home from work and I’m kinda having a hard time sleeping. I’ve been veryyyy busy with work these past few days. I really feel like missing out on so many things and the bad side of it is that I’m quite getting used to it. Now I know the meaning of stress-eating. And tomorrow, I’m really planning to try stress-shopping! For real! Oh well, I hope this kind of situation is just temporary…or if not, a rare scenario that would happen once in a blue moon! :p I better hit the bed now because we surely missed each other and we have some coping up to do!

And for you, as promised, we will go out and make that ‘date’ happen. Just let me de-stress first Goodnightie! mwah!

A few hours from now, I would be on my 24th year of existence.
I must say that I feel a sense of fulfillment with everything that has happened to me. A year ago, I spent my first birthday away from my family and friends, and my first birthday out of the country. Which reminds me, that during my 23rd, I was already able to travel across Europe. How cool is that, right? Even though I sometimes feel that a lot of things are still missing in my life, I’m also aware that I have a lot of things to be grateful for.

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I remember when my friends were planning an out-of-town vacay somewhere in Batangas. I did ask for the list of people who are coming and noticed that they were all couples. I said, “hey, how about me? I don’t have anyone to tag along just like you guys”. That’s when it was sinking in that alright I get it I’m single. I know I don’t have anyone yet right now, but I’m thankful that I have my friends who never failed to be there. They are the best of friends anyone could ever have. Our 9 years of friendship is something incomparable and irreplaceable. So I’m just glad they’re there. Plus this is the price of being single, that anytime any of us needs a breather or even a plain coffee-out, we’re always available


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I always wonder how it feels like arguing with my mom even about small things like the clothes I’d wear, how I would sometimes leave my bed unfixed, or even how lazy I could get during weekends. I also wonder how it feels like fighting with my mom about major issues like choosing the guys I would date, how I would spend my salary, or even the time I would be coming home after a night out with my friends. Those are a few of my frustrations growing up without a mom. Every girl’s dream is to share everything with their mom because we know it is different with her. She would understand better, and she would sympathize deeper. Maybe my life would have been more complete if I still had her with me right now, but I’m thankful that I have my dad who has been there all along. He has been a very good provider and he never lacked giving advises that we needed. So I’m just glad he’s around, because I know everytime I would take a few steps back, he is just there supporting me.


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These past few days, I have been very whiny about my workload and the tasks being given to me at work. I feel a bit tired because I’ve been going home late not like I used to, and I feel unsatisfied because I was expecting a different path for my career. As they say, we should all take it as a challenge and not as something that would pull us down. Above it all, I should feel blessed that my career has been going so well for me. So I guess I’ll have to try to see the good in it. Besides, it’s still too early for me to have a mid-life crisis so I’ll just enjoy what is and look forward to what’s gonna happen


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I’m just gonna enjoy my day (or week) since this only happens once a year.

As far as I remember, it’s the Christmas month, not the love month. What’s up with me?

I was just addicted to this song lately. Who won’t fall inlove with this? Such a classic, plus the lyrics <3 sigh

After all the stops and starts
We keep comin’ back to these two hearts
Two angels who’ve been rescued from the fall
After all that we’ve been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it’s meant to be, forever you and me, after all

Once I find my soulmate…
…that one person who’s never gonna get tired and bored
…that one person who’s gonna enjoy breakfasts with me
…that one person who’s gonna keep up with my moods
…that one person who’s gonna make me laugh after a hard day’s work

then maybe there we’ll know it is for keeps.

Is it just me? or I’ve had too much Disney movies in my system?

You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, or even months over-analyzing a situation. Trying to put the pieces together. Justifying what could have, should have, or would have happened….

…Or you can leave the pieces on the floor. And just simply move on.

Easier said than done. But sum up life in three words…It Goes On.

I have stayed offline on my YM account for a month, and now I just thought of checking any offline messages if there are any. To my surprise, soon as I clicked the “Available” button, two people from way way back both sent messages simultaneously. Well it’s really not a big deal but what are the chances? Also my point is, why can’t they just move ahead and just let me be. Oh well, they’re words clearly shows that their lives are very much okay, but why brag about it? I honestly don’t care because I’m just doing the same, living mine. I hope they can just do the same.

This plays over and over today!

09/01 – One of the most-awaited days for ACN peeps.
First thing that popped in my mind is MEISS. Second was “to login”, but no success :p After a few occurrences of “Server has reached maximum number of users. Please try again”, at 10:00am, finally I got to see it.

All I can say is, ‘not bad’. Overall, it was better than I expected. Thank you Lord!

Oh my. I hate what I’m feeling right now. Part of me is in denial, and a part of me as well is very obvious. I know I’m holding back into whatever this is. I’ve been trying harder everyday to back-off but it’s just getting worse. I wish I have the wisdom and courage to decide, decide what would be the best for me. I know it’s not wrong to risk, but I also have to keep in mind that in the end, I won’t be losing this battle again…that in the end, I have chosen something right.

Hate to do it but I’m counting days again. This causes me to over think at times. But enough of that. I’ll just let it be. No anticipations. Just enjoy on a day-to-day basis

Just finished watching Insidious and i think it’s one of the scariest movies I’ve seen. It is very creepy like no other. Now I have to deal with this week-long. lol!

My friend randomly visited by blog and she was asking me why I didn’t have any major entries pertaining to my 5-month stay in Europe. So I revisited my posts and yes, I have to agree with her. Why in the world are my posts talking about my “drama-related” experiences only? lol! I mean, people would have been more interested on my travels right?

I think I better share some (if not all) of my European escapades! =)

HEIDELBERG

We enjoyed walking along the streets of the Old town with its historic atmosphere, stunning churches, and the Heidelberg Castle. The weather was at it’s best so we were able to enjoy our city tour.

Took a picture in the main city in front of the bahnhof

Untere Strasse in the Old Town

Inside the old town going to Ottheinrich building

Statue fountain in Schloss Heidelberg

The Church of the Holy Spirit

Pepper pots on the old bridge

Carl Theodor Bridge

Heidelberg Tun

Tour around the ruins

Waiting for Funicular Train to Heidelberg Castle

Other pictures while exporing the whole city

And ofcourse, the Heidelberg Castle! Too bad we were not able to have a little look inside

HAMBURG

Explored the second-largest city in Germany, Hamburg. This city is famous because of the ‘port of Hamburg’ which is I guess one of the largest in Europe as well. Met up and had dinner with colleague Nick Linnenbruger since it was his hometown.

Picture of the Hamburg bahnhof

Took this jump shot while walking towards the hamburg hot air balloon

While waiting for the train

The Warehouse District

In front of the Hamburg Alster Lake

Snapshots of the port at night…very lovely.

Found this church while walking along the streets

The famous Town Hall Rathausmarkt, Altstadt.

BERLIN

Here we are in the capital of Germany, Munich. I wished we had an overnight stay in the city but we only had the weekend with us so day tour it is! Too bad the shopping center was also closed since we went there on a Sunday.

The Brandenburg Gate in Berlin

The Haus am Checkpoint Charlie museum

Image of a soviet soldier at Checkpoint Charlie

St. Hedwig’s Cathedral

Other Pictures around the city

The very historic Berlin Wall

MUNICH

Overnight stay in the third largest city in Germany, Munich! I was a bit uneasy during the whole trip because it was literally freezin cold that I could hardly feel my toes. I was already wearing two pairs of socks with my booties and still no effect! But overall it was such a great city. We enjoyed the “Christmas atmosphere” and really felt the Winter season

Munich Town Hall at Marienplatz

Karlstor, entrance to Munich’s Old Town

Frauenkirche, near Cathedral Church of Our Lady in Munich

Buildings along Maximilian Strasse

The Propylaen in Munich

Fun ice skating at Karlsplatz

Other city pictures

PARIS, FRANCE

The largest city in France, Pariiii! A very very Romantic city I must say. I’ve been dreaming of spending this trip with a special someone but I guess it wasn’t the right time yet so I just enjoyed it with a couple of colleagues. Seeing the Eiffel tower is very overwhelming *sigh*

Airfrance it is!

On the way uuuup to Sacré-Coeur Basilica

At Sacré-Coeur Basilica

Louis Vuitton along Paris shopping streets

Took a picture with a Football player while inside the Adidas store

The Arc de Triomphe. I didn’t expect it was that huge!

The Louvre in Paris. How I wish I could have watched Da Vinci Code before this trip!

Enjoying the rainy weather while wandering around Paris. Who cares about the gloomy day? We’re in Paris anyway! :p

And the highlight of the whole trip – Eiffel Tower. It took me a week before realizing that I actually saw it We were also able to go up til the 4th floor of the tower and I enjoyed the discount since I belong in the “youth” category.

I ♥ PARIS

ATHENS, GREECE

And for our last Eurotrip, we decided to discover the Greek culture. It was a perfect timing because we were in need of some place warm to have a break in the middle of the snowy weather in Frankfurt. Since it was our last trip before going back to the Phils, we had to make it a very memorable one. And indeed, it was! moskita shot + beer + wine + blowjob + whiskey + gin tonic + vodka lemon = totally wasted night!

Taking a picture under an Orange tree outside the hotel! You’ll be seeing lots of Orange trees in parks and gardens in the whole city.

Taking a break before going up

Start of our Acropolis tour! First stop is the Herodion Theatre under the Acropolis

The sun was so up but it was overly windy as we were getting close to the Parthenon.
Distant shot of the Erechtheum

Down the Propylaea

The Parthenon. Seeing this structure really made me feel the Greek atmoshpere, recalling mythology, feeling like I’m a true goddess! Chosss!

Very overwhelming view of the Lycabettus Hill

Other pictures around Acropolis

A sculpture of the Patron Goddess of Athens, Athena

Our last day in Greece (day before my birthday).
While looking for a place to eat our lunch, Gerry and I were tied up by a Greek clown

Other city-walk pictures

Bought some Greek souvenirs from this store

FRANKFURT, GERMANY

The city I considered my second home I must say it has been very close to my heart already. Especially when I have learned how to speak the German basics (which was a very important thing), and when I finally knew my way around the city (which eventually led me to those great finds!). Plus the people are generally nice. I must say I really had a great time

First memorable clubbing at Odeon with Nick, Bea, Arnel and Ed

My first favorite shopping center in the world, Zeil. Talk about H&M and Zara? All the good finds are here

My second favorite shopping center, Wertheim Village. Outlet Village where you can best buy Longchamp bags and Fossil wrist watches

Our building lobby, off to eat lunch in Panino

Frankfurt Architecture Tour

Very nice overview of the whole city

Waiting for the beautiful sunset

Friday drunken night with German colleagues before our weekend work

When we feel like eating a looot, we totally splurge on Chicago Meatpacker’s Ribs!

Nothing beats Beck’s beer…..

….Paired with Chicago meatpacker’s riiiibs! Awesome!

ASG Party slash Black and White Party slash James Bond Party. Don’t even ask why I got that drunk that night. Gin tonic, gin tonic and more gin tonic

Promotion Party = Veeery Long Island Iced tea

Caught playing 1 2 3 Pass after Gerry’s Birthday treat at their pad. Btw, Super yummy Spaghetti and Chicken lollies!

Housewarming at Dex and Marvin’s pad.

Lunch at our default resto, Peking Ente. Talk about buffet and buffet ice cream.

MBU Team Christmas Party at Berhard and Christian’s Place.

Feeling the winter season with the snow-covered streets infront of our apartment

How can one forget an opportunity like this? It made me experience a lot of my firsts in my career. And yea…this is also my first out-of-the-country trip…and hopefully not my last

Labas daw kami sometime? Kilalanin daw ang bawat isa? Love daw nya ako? Ano yan? explain further! haha )

Met up with Yang and her cousin at Citizen then went to Reserve to catch some better crowd Good thing there was one available table in Reserve. It was a great place to unwind and enjoy with my best friends! Plus some other new-found ones Ayla, and Oyo-boy look-alike (forgot his name). I guess it was one of the best crowds since Zanjoe, Vhong, and Champ were there. Totally starstruck! Very unforgettable night for me. At around 5:00, we had breakfast at Yoohoo in MW, then Milky dropped me home in time for his convention in Manila Hotel. lol!

Nick is on a 5-day visit in Manila so he invited us for a night-out on a Thursday. We had our dinner in Sentro 1771 in Greenbelt. The food is great but it will cost you. My fave was the corned beef sinigang and smoked fish rolls (highly recommended). For the after party, Opus it is! It was my first time to visit Opus in R.W and I think it’s better than Republiq (?). I just had a glass of Margarrrrita and didn’t stay that long. Hope to see you again soon, Nick!

Sentro 1771

Opus, Resorts world

OMG! The Chicken tenders in Citizen Pub were really good! I think it can level up to Charlie’s hot wings. But I’ll definitely go back to Citizen, ofcourse with my bestest friends. Last Saturday was an insane one! We wrapped the night at Citizen with one crazy tequilla shot. Then after that, I lost my mind. lol! I thought the night was already over but then we headed to Mark’s place in Roces Ave. Then I saw…what? more vodka? and the rest is history =P