Like this:

Honestly, I felt sad today…or maybe the more appropriate term is frustrated. I already saw this coming during the past few days. I thought I was prepared for it, but then again, I wasn’t after all. I don’t want to specify things, or even blame you. But I know what I felt, and I know what you’ve shown in return. They were not merely mixed signals. I’m quite sure something was already there. I’m talking not just as a hurt person, but someone who has fallen, but was left hanging. The minute I stepped out of that door, it’s like I was missing you over and over again. I don’t want to be mad, but I don’t want to be weak either. Now I realized how much I feared for this day to come. With just one sitting, it all ended in a snap. The special bond, the friendship, and most especially, the Chuck and Blair resemblance. I wouldn’t deny that I was hopeful…that you would be an improvement over the last, and that finally, I’ve found a lover and a bestfriend in one. I was happy with how things were going. With you I experienced more movies, more music, more food, and more laughter. I feel sorry for myself because I did prepare myself for a fall…and now I face the consequences. I made this same mistake with you once. And the second time I did this same mistake with you, it wasn’t a mistake anymore, but a choice. The fact that things won’t be the same anymore hits me. A lot. But I’m not a kid anymore. No one could save me from myself. So this is where my mind takes over. Now I’ll stop chasing over the wrong things, to give the right things a chance to catch me.

Maybe some people are meant to fall for each other, but are not meant to be together.

You will always be that person….my bad ass Prince Charming ala Chuck Bass

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